The journey into self-examination can feel like the cleaning out of an old barn.
We know it’s going to be a really big job and there are questions.
Are we even up to the task?
What if it proves to be too painful?
Some of us may have to cut through bit of barbed wire we’ve put up for our own protection just to get on the premises.
In self-examination, it’s one thing to acknowledge our annoying habits and maybe even a sin or two. But like the contents of an old barn, we may not even know what is inside. We may have forgotten what has been stored there given over to moth and rust.
In this element of the process we really do need God to guide us, because often our inner wounds, character deficiencies and sin patterns are unknown to us and we need God to reveal them.The final move is confession.- Ruth Haley Barton, Sacred Rhythms
The final move is confession…
Not a one and done, but confession bourne out of the discovery and revelation that God, in his grace and mercy, does not want to leave me a rusted pipe.
So, with God’s help, I’ve begun the process of purgation. A stripping away of all that is not my truest self. A purging of what I have allowed myself to cling to instead of Jesus.
I’m purging the barn.
I’m putting myself under the loving gaze of God to be stripped of the darkness I didn’t even know was there.
So what if, instead of this purgation and confession looking like a broken down shell of my busted up self…,
It looks more like this…
Me made clean, refreshed, renewed and leaving a new footprint.